nothing to be afraid of , and nothing to be proud about

my first note since 2011.. my first little steps on my path careers..
I've made many mistake since that, a lot of shit. so many things happened, its kinda intersting.. from the knowledge, experience, new colleagues, friendship, friendzone, relationship, hope, trust, happiness, betrayal, affairs, beautiful lie and truth hurt. so the digest from the past two years are.

in job: do not mix between work and private.. NEVER ever. once you do that, you'll drown in a real deep big shit. my suggestions: let say, just treat me like a robot. You don't have to be nice to me, and vice versa. I will do and finish with professionals. people are trying to be nice on work, but you know what? im not saying that's all crap but. even if you don't do that, that even better, for yourself to act professional, since sometimes you have to be strict as a superiors or even as a partner. to keep your job in excellent performance.

in life: I don't know whether I'm capable to write this or not but, as I see it. the more people who hate you, then less people you have to pleased. be independent, do not hanging around to anyone else's promises or words. no body in this freakin world will help you unless your parents. if some other do that, he/she might be liking you and you shouldn't take the favour in any aspect. believe that you can do fucking anything. it's all about damn time. I've been there, done.. im in a real deep shit since I was accepted favour from the person who got crush on me. they made me like work in hell, im digging my own graveyards. and be strict to people that might be liking you. don't you ever think that you can control the circumstance either the person who you interact with. do not accepted any favour unless you intend to deal with them

personally I choose beautiful lie than truth hurt, currently. for now but don't know in the near future. hope I still have time in the earth to make real what's inside my mind. still owe much to many people especially the mother herself. sometimes you have to take and eat all the shit. since a perfect life won't last much time. been there and done. I have a perfect life in mid 2013. great job, great life, great relationship, great friends, so perfect. guess what who ruin my perfect life? that's my self.. yes, me. the person it self. made a shit of my perfect life. No body is take the responsible for happiness unless yourself. this is long story, you can ask me later if Im not 'Game Over' yet in this world.LOL..

so tell me again how hard your life is? you dont know how deep and big the real shit i have been and will trough. you, me, and everyone are not center of the universes. how long will we live on earth? 40? 70? 130? 200 years? live is short. people will forget even in the next 50 years, I put my bottom dollars that no body will even remembered your graveyard are. ya unless you're special like artists or what. now im trying to remake the puzzle. o'Lord.. please grant me the power to handle any shit in front of, give me the strength to take care anyone that I care of, give me the capability to help each other, give me desire to learn, im craving for knowledge. please let me do good things. and here I am , write this note..

life goes on, people change and heart moves on. but memories dont. nothing priceless in this world except memories and Hope. dreams are good but you have to wake up to make it real. now sorry for this interrupting note, I got to get my ass over here.
hasta la vista, bitch ;)
@fatwakha

this is not the end

i dont know if I can make you falling in love with me if we meet again in another life (skip this for later)
you wont believe this, but im having the essence of life from the opponent. biggest corporation of all time. whatever you have done, whatever you live, wherever you are, whoever you are. this is not the end. there is billion way to change your destination. the destiny.. you! you own the process..
everyone sometimes will have to die. but the process of life. it is up on you. what makes you weak is your feeling, your hope on others, on humanity.
once upon a time, new friend on corporation has told me 'dont ask from man, ask from God. human always bargain. but not god' for me its more than simple, classical but basic. that is what our parents told us, what our teacher told us. back to the idea, what makes us weak is the hope that we put on others. we are strong as individuals.
imagine if you see someone you dont know died on the road, you feel nothing but empathy because you dont know them. you have no feel to sad. this is what im talking about. be a stranger to anyone but be kind enough so everyone will remember you.

personal choices

can't do nothing but patience
since I got nothing but time
it's all about damn time

today i will tell you about the deceived of the management. so if you get hired by a corporation, for sure as hell they need you for filling the empty position that might needed. but that doesn't mean they're all one hundred percent need your favor.
in fact, been there and done. it could be (might) they need you to become a -scapegoat- .there was a time, even the management need some subject to be blame about for anything that doesn't work well. needless to say but if you drown in this shit, you have to eat all the shit. sometimes shit happened and nothing we can do
about.

or

if you brave enough, just walk away. just don't argue with IDIOT Superior, because he/she/they will drag you to their level and beat you with their stupidity experience.

nothing to do about, nothing to say about. let them be Idiot forever. leave and keep fight for your self. sometimes you have to stop to across the ocean for the one who event don't wanna jump into mud for you. its all about your personal choices, every choice you made or you will made, you own your own life. choose your battle wisely, don't let debating turn to anger and rage. don't spend your time for dividing making enemies and allies.

from Allah we come, to Allah we return.
be joyful in hope and faithful in prayer

jelek

perilakumu jelek sekali . seperti jatuh dari pohon kejelekan dan menabrak setiap cabang yang ada

hidup dengan mempersulit atau mempermudah ?

karma.. beberapa orang tidak percaya dengan adanya karma karena satu dan banyak hal


tapi tentunya dengan cara pikir yang lebih logis anda mengenal peribahasa
'what you give is what you get'

jika ingin sukses maka anda harus berusaha, bla..bla.. dan seterusnya.. dan sebaliknya..

tentu saja tidak hanya terikat satu hal mengenai itu
hal sekecil apapun entah itu baik buruk yang kita tanam, pasti hasilnya akan kembali kepada kita

kita berdosa kepada tuhan, bersujud langsung mungkin kita dapat bertobat..

berdosa karena menyakiti hati manusia? mempersulit atau apapun itu...?
sampai jasad kita kembali ketanah pun, selama manusia itu belum memaafkan, maka .. yaa u know (:

so enjoy your life, do fuckverything of what u want.. but dont hurt or make difficult any person (:

rekan gila

...pencitraan akhir yang selalu kau gambarkan dimana hanya dirimu yang benar dengan memutar balikan segala fakta

tentu saja kau tidak bisa menyumpahi ratusan orang yang berbeda dengan sumpah serapah yang sama atas dasar keyakinanmu sendiri,

ucapan sampah pamungkasmu 'Kita lihat saja, siapa yang ketawa puas paling akhir, nanti..'

tertawa paling akhir? semua tergantung situasi tentunya, dari pemicu hingga menjadi akibat.. tapi bila semua situasi disamaratakan seperti itu, tentulah orang yang tertawa terakhir itu orang sakit, gila !!!

you are not the center of the world,

apapun

Letih menghadapi siluet semu dirimu , Hingga akhirnya kuputuskan untuk berhenti menyiksa diri , Membunuh aku yang dulu..
Hilang sudah pelipur laraku , tak lagi aku peduli..



Berpura-pura dalam situasi lamakah kita? racun itu mulai merasuki nadiku
Hingga menutup puing-puing kenangan terbaik akanmu
Ya.. racun bernama benci itu juga telah menyentuh tulang ragaku , Aku pun mulai bernazar untuk kematianmu ..

jika saja Dia Yang Maha Kuasa adalah sosok nyata , Biar saja telunjuk jari-Nya membinasakanmu ..
Pun kubayar dengan setiap detik sisa hidupku , Jika saja aku dapat merasa nikmat atas sengsaramu ..
Mengganti setiap tetes air mataku dengan kucur darahmu ..

I will bringing down the Hell to you