my first note since 2011.. my first little steps on my path careers..
I've made many mistake since that, a lot of shit. so many things happened, its kinda intersting.. from the knowledge, experience, new colleagues, friendship, friendzone, relationship, hope, trust, happiness, betrayal, affairs, beautiful lie and truth hurt. so the digest from the past two years are.
in job: do not mix between work and private.. NEVER ever. once you do that, you'll drown in a real deep big shit. my suggestions: let say, just treat me like a robot. You don't have to be nice to me, and vice versa. I will do and finish with professionals. people are trying to be nice on work, but you know what? im not saying that's all crap but. even if you don't do that, that even better, for yourself to act professional, since sometimes you have to be strict as a superiors or even as a partner. to keep your job in excellent performance.
in life: I don't know whether I'm capable to write this or not but, as I see it. the more people who hate you, then less people you have to pleased. be independent, do not hanging around to anyone else's promises or words. no body in this freakin world will help you unless your parents. if some other do that, he/she might be liking you and you shouldn't take the favour in any aspect. believe that you can do fucking anything. it's all about damn time. I've been there, done.. im in a real deep shit since I was accepted favour from the person who got crush on me. they made me like work in hell, im digging my own graveyards. and be strict to people that might be liking you. don't you ever think that you can control the circumstance either the person who you interact with. do not accepted any favour unless you intend to deal with them
personally I choose beautiful lie than truth hurt, currently. for now but don't know in the near future. hope I still have time in the earth to make real what's inside my mind. still owe much to many people especially the mother herself. sometimes you have to take and eat all the shit. since a perfect life won't last much time. been there and done. I have a perfect life in mid 2013. great job, great life, great relationship, great friends, so perfect. guess what who ruin my perfect life? that's my self.. yes, me. the person it self. made a shit of my perfect life. No body is take the responsible for happiness unless yourself. this is long story, you can ask me later if Im not 'Game Over' yet in this world.LOL..
so tell me again how hard your life is? you dont know how deep and big the real shit i have been and will trough. you, me, and everyone are not center of the universes. how long will we live on earth? 40? 70? 130? 200 years? live is short. people will forget even in the next 50 years, I put my bottom dollars that no body will even remembered your graveyard are. ya unless you're special like artists or what. now im trying to remake the puzzle. o'Lord.. please grant me the power to handle any shit in front of, give me the strength to take care anyone that I care of, give me the capability to help each other, give me desire to learn, im craving for knowledge. please let me do good things. and here I am , write this note..
life goes on, people change and heart moves on. but memories dont. nothing priceless in this world except memories and Hope. dreams are good but you have to wake up to make it real. now sorry for this interrupting note, I got to get my ass over here.
hasta la vista, bitch ;)
@fatwakha
